I DONT KNOW WHAT TO CALL THIS ONE

two weeks ago my boss, ted, had his first grandchild. a little girl named elizabeth. the whole preganancy went well and the baby was born heathy. all is looking well for little elizabeth. but just this last weekend, my other boss, sandy recived her first grandchild. a little boy name kaden. but unfortunatly things are'nt looking good for kaden. while he was only born about two weeks early, he has a hole in his lung and his hip is dislocated. then we found out that he is missing a kidney and the kidney that he does have isnt functioning right and has sists on it. and on top of all this he has a hole in his heart and has no bladder. i cant even express how incredibly sad and upset this makes me. its just not fair. and i know that nothing is fair. but it just seems like somethings are much more unfair. just to prove my point, my co worker cathy, just told us that her daughter is expecting thier first child in may. we have so many emotions going on in my office right now! im not sure i can handle all of this!! my heart is breaking for sandy and her daughter, but im so happy for ted and cathy!! things like this make me not want to have kids. i mean i really really do want to have kids, but i think that i would be completly heartbroken if i lost a child. im not sure i could deal with it. but then i have to realize that there are so many heathly babies that have never had any problems! and its not worth it to live in any kind of fear. once again, you just have to have faith that god knows what he is doing.